I am in my fifties and on my own in the world. My parents have died, I am single with no children and I have no brothers and sisters. I have always longed for a close relationship with the right person, but it hasn't happened. To be honest, I feel afraid, lonely and very unhappy all the time inside. It is frightening not to have anyone to rely on for support at bad times. I need surgery, but can't have it as there is noone to care for me afterwards. Life seems so meaningless and I feel worthless because I am not a priority in anyone else's life. I go out to social events and see friends in an attempt to build a life for myself, but I have no real closeness or contact with anyone. Often when I am with people they only see the shell surrounding me and not the me I am inside. I really hope that I do not have to live to be old, because the sooner I am gone, the better.
No one will ever imagine what I have gone through. I had the worst father in the world. He just died of brain damage. He was a headache to me when he was alive. He always ignores me and in addition he always left me behind. He just loves my brother. It always makes me sad to see him being nice to my brother only. Now that he is dead, mom is having depression. She could not accept the reality that father had left us forever. Taking care of my mum is a burden to me. This is because I need to buy her medicines and they cost a lot. Do not get me wrong. I love my mum but the only thing that makes me worried is her condition. It is getting worse day by day and her medicines are of no help. I do not know what to do. For the time being I will just continue living like this, buying mum’s prescriptions and feed her with the medicines and hoping for her to get better. I do not have anybody who can listen to my problem. My friends are all busy with their own lives. I guess it is time for me to get a lover who will hold my hand during hard times and good times.
A 22 years old male, that what I am. I have a very good appearance and is quite attracttive. I once had a very fit body and used to be a model for some magazines. During my teen ages, I have a lot of friends. I always hangout at the bars and got hooked up with some girls. But after some time, I get tired and bored doing the same thing over and over again because there are nothing on their mind accept for drinking and hooking up. I left them all accept for a couple of friends whom I shared many from my childhood.
I am now further my study in the university. I make only a few friends here. I have more during my first year but can’t keep the friendship last long because I find there is nothing interesting to talk about. I prefer observing and do my own thinking. With my background, I start to think that everyone has their own reason to be friends with others. However, I still join some parties and socialize there. But I felt lonely. I have a girlfriend and it seems that I know her more than she did and eventually she will dump me soon.
There are many people want to make friends with me and able to sacrifice for me but they did not suit me enough. I feel like I can’t trust anybody. Nobody seems to be fun to be my friend. When I found somebody fun, they just have other agenda and want something from me. But I think I am no differ from them only for one thing; I still go to parties. I love to learn about the world and also life. I think I am looking for the serenity and fun I get when I was a child and want to share them with my girlfriend.
Now although I am still young, I feel like I am old inside. I only talk about career, girls, money, and cars with my friends. I am so lonely. I want people to understand me. I don’t want to pretend to be a funny young guy anymore. Read more...
I need somebody to talk to. I’m so lonely and I don’t have anybody. I am a widow, I just lost my partner to cancer. I’m in my mid forties and I’m gay. Life was wonderful last year before the love of my life left me forever. I devoted my whole life towards our relationship. We spent most of our time at home, to ourselves. We didn’t have many friends, people think we were very much into ourselves and they cannot stand us being around them. Now that I lost my partner, life is very lonely. I get up alone, eating alone and sleeping alone. It’s hard to get to bed thinking that tomorrow is going to be another lonely day. Most of the times, I spent my time working and watching TV. It is really hard to close my eyes and try to sleep alone. I often take sleeping pills to force me to sleep. I have tried to find friends online but it never happens. I still miss him very much that it hurts to get along with another man. The only time that I’m not lonely is during my sleep when I dream of my partner and we are having our good time together with our friends. Somehow I wish my dream to be the real life and swap with my current life. I even have problems when meeting people. This probably due to minimal interaction with the public as all my life was spent with my partner. I will freeze and sweat when talking to other people. Some people just left me straight away when I could not respond to their conversation. They might think I’m a freak gay widower who lives in his own world of fantasy. I don’t have anybody. I sometimes think that it’s better for me to take a bottle of the sleeping pills and slip away into my dream and live there forever.
Until now, I still can’t find the meaning of life. To me, life is bad and I don’t have any desire to live in this world. I have a family that doesn’t really care about me. I don’t even have friends who could share my ups and downs. I don’t think I could get a partner as I’m ugly and I even hate to look at myself in the mirror. I have always been jealous with others who can live happily with their partners and families. I don’t even have a job as I don’t have the qualification. I’m still trying to pass my degree and it took me extra years compared to others. This is because I kept on changing my major as I couldn’t make up my mind. I have found all the majors so boring. I have nobody to talk to. It’s hard to live alone and decide on my own. To me, I have nothing that interests me to live anymore. I found that life is very boring and a waste of time. Sometimes I wonder whether other people think similarly about life. Are they really loved to live in this world or they are just faking their lives.
I’m single and I have a crappy job. I’m lonely and I hate my job. Those previous sentences are the only things that are going on my mind every day. My life is boring and lonely. This started recently when I rejected my partner. He was my fiancé at that time. I split from him because I could not stand his bad behavior. He loves to stare at women, even when he is with me. It’s so disgusting to see your loved one staring at other women when the only man in your eyes is him. He is also useless as he refused to work and depend on me for everything, from food to clothing. How pathetic isn’t it? At first, I convinced myself that I could accept him for whoever he is. However, day by day, things are getting worse. I cannot accept him anymore. To make things worse, he started to pick up his old habit of smoking. I cannot stand the smell, the smoke and cannot afford to pay for his cigarettes. I told him to quit smoking but he just ignored me. Unlike him, I follow his orders. Any of my behaviors that he didn’t like, I quit because of him. This shows that I respected him and not being a selfish. That’s the story of my relationship.
At work, I don’t like my boss. He is useless, being used by my officemate. The woman used him to get to me as she is afraid I might take over her position and be my boss’s favorite. I never hate my job but the environment and the boss made me feel miserable day by day. Since most of my daily hours are in office, I could not tolerate my life anymore. I have nobody to turn to. My friends are all busy with their lives. They now have their own families and children. It seems that they do not have time for their miserable lonely friend anymore.
I have no family, no friends, and no life! The only thing that I have is my job. The pay is great but it’s meaningless when there is no one in my life.
I am a beautiful woman with a career. I have no man in my life. No family and no friends. I have been searching for one and currently I am hopeless. I’m already in my forties. It’s hard to get a man in this day. It’s either they are all taken or useless. Unlike years ago, men are no longer checking on me in public. I live a decent life and have never tried any illegal drugs to help me get away from my lonely life. Sometimes I wonder whether is this just what it is to life?
I am very depressed and very lonely. I used to have so many friends but all of them left me last summer. I do not know what have I did wrong or what happened to them. They just ignore me. I guess that figure out that they cannot benefit anything from me. I do not have any social status like what they have. So why bother to be friend with me? Sincerely I became their friend just because I need somebody who I can share my life with, my ups and downs. I never hang out with them just to be famous because of their social status. It really is hurting to know that your friends were faking in front of you. However I think that it is better for me to know about this sooner or later they will still reveal their true colors. I am coping with the loss. All I can do now is spend time with my dog. I will keep myself busy by cleaning and playing with my dog. Sometimes I think that it is easier to be like this to not having any human friends. Having a dog as my friend is much better as dog is always obedient and he will always listen to all my problems. Probably I should change my perception. Why bother to have human friends when I can have my dog as my friend as well as my pet?
I have interest in man and I’m looking for a partner who could live with me through good and hard times. I live in suburban in Canada. I desperately need somebody in my life as for now I have no friends and my family doesn’t like me for who I am. I just need somebody!